Settling back in the USA is not going to be easy. It's like I've dropped off the face of the earth for some people. It's the nomadic lifestyle. You can't make lasting friendships because your job makes you move. And when you are ready to leave, you have to say goodbye all over again. Jason has a point and I'm glad he's chosen to stay. Maybe one of us makes more sense than the other. I've always been used to moving. I've always had different groups of friends. I came to depend not on one, but on many different people. And maybe that worked for me..but not for everyone.
I'm still grateful for the many blessings. Every now and then I stumble and fall, and God reminds what I need to do. It's that spiritual workout I need, something that I wasn't born with. But through grace, have gained through hard work. Life was never simple or easy for me...I continue to do many things the hard way, not necessarily the smarter way. Maybe that was (and is) the only way I knew how. If it wasn't hard, to me it wasn't work.
Now as I get ready for bed, I have to work on being more content..Something not easy. I keep striving for better but I'm glad that coming here, I've got to do what I want to do, to show what I've got to show and to help those who needed help.
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