Something I wanted to just jot down before I forget. My therapist told me that writing a diary is a great way to vent. I’m going to go back to that. I just think in a world where we receive more information than our ancestors ever did, there is a necessity to process that information – in the form of writing, speaking, and venting.
This weekend I went to a great retreat. It was called "Mercy and Mary," and the reason I heard about it was from my friend I met through a Magnificat seminar. Oddly enough, this was when I had just completed 33 days to Morning Glory, as part of the SoulCore training experience. In an essence, I feel like God has made this journey for me possible because it was meant to happen.
As my departure from Florida is coming closer, I feel like I’m more than ever, close to achieving God’s plan. I feel like Jonah from the bible story. Like Jonah, God had a plan to do something…and Jonah runs away only to get swallowed by a whale (fish). Until he completed his plan, he would not be able to leave. He had to accomplish what God set him to do. Like him, with the government shutdown and what not, I really wanted to leave Florida. But could not. It was the “fight or flight” reaction I had to the stress and frustrations I was facing all around. I never said I was perfect. I was always evaluating and judging people, yet the plank in my eyes was larger.
The bottom line. I’m not afraid to admit I am broken. Who isn’t broken? Even the saints were broken. What I learned from the retreat is this..God wants us to keep our brokenness. It’s a way for us to stay connected to Jesus. It’s a way to perfectly love him. We can be “perfectly” like him just like that verse in the bible says, “Be perfect like your heavenly father is perfect” by LOVING him perfectly.
First we accept and then we can heal. Thank you AA group - let me accept what I can, and cannot change. Amen.
