It has been a couple months since my last post. I have stepped away from blogging due to difficulties of life but I am back, slowly but surely recovering. I have learned that many things have changed yet many stay the same. And through it all, I have Christ in my heart.
Last month, my daughter was diagnosed with osteosarcoma of the femur bone. It was shocking to say the least. A girl who had straight As, played travel soccer, track and field and one of the most healthiest child with a promising future, just had a setback with a life threatening disease. The good news is that it is localized, but the treatment can be up to a year and there is still surgery involved. Why the disheartening news?
I believe that everything happens for a reason. As I said earlier, I still have God in my heart and He will see me through. I just have to remember that whatever I am going through, it is just a season. I will get over my depression. Alyssa will be cured from cancer with no complications.
Last year, 2018, I certified to become a SoulCore leader - a fitness leader in a exercise movement to the prayers of the rosary. The exercise teaches us to meditate to Christ suffering, feeling his pain in each movement and learning to bear it all. During the certification, I read the book 33 days to morning glory and consecrated my life and that of my family to the protection of Mary. All this to say that I trust in God’s healing and the blessed mother’s intercession to see me and my family through no matter how I am feeling.
As I reflect on 2019, I see the hardships I faced with travel to a new assignment, separation from my family with my assignment to pursue a job that I have been wanting and enjoying every bit until I hit a wall. Then, seeing God work in me, as the rest of the year bears bad news. All this will end with 2019. Because, as the staying goes, once you hit rock bottom you can only go up.
