Since I was a child, I worked hard to get good grades. Since I was a child, I worked hard to gain the love and attention of those around me. Yet, life has passed me by and I broke a sweat trying to reach my goals. Yet others do so, effortlessly. They were smart about it. How can I be smart as well?
This week, I decided there is a better way. That way is not having to insist anymore, but to go with the ebb and flow of life. God knows what He's doing. And He will finish his work in me, not with endless struggles, but with ease.
That's right. I won't insist. If someone doesn't want to--I will leave them be. If you're looking for a seal of approval from someone, and are not getting it, just leave it be.
Today, after going to worship, I find a bit of encouragement when the pastor invited me to sing a solo during one of their services. That was so nice. Here I was, feeling discouraged by not getting approval from another church to sing a solo, and here I am, being welcomed with open arms. It feels great to belong. It feels great not to work so hard. It feels great to just go with the flow.
God I pray you continue to give me strength to move on from the energies of life that drain me and do me no good. You have anointed us, we just have to trust. Your arms are stretched out to me.
