The Concept of Time Travel

The concept of time travel has always fascinated me. My favorite movie is Back to the Future because if the opportunity exists to go back and make things better for our future wouldn’t we? Besides the movie is a classic with all kinds of punchlines. It is hilarious what people do the past would think of people of today. 

I think about another romantic movie in Thai where a modern day woman goes back in time and falls in love with a man who lived during the 5th King’s reign. The idea transcends culture because it is something every  humans dreams of.

Time travel is not only a fantasy everyone dreams of, it revolves around romance because love is eternal. Like the movie “Somewhere in Time” and the chic flick with Meg Ryan “Kate and Leopoldo” where she falls in love with a man from 1876 just shows how customs change, but human nature doesn’t. And my favorite scene is where she gets up and as a gentleman, he says it is polite to stand up when a woman gets up. 

Time travel will always fascinate me. Even though I don’t have a delorean like Marty, I travel in time all the time through visiting pictures and daily ruminations of how my day, week and month went.

What is Happiness and why do we demand perfection

It has been a month since I took time off to be with Alyssa during her chemo treatment.  I am slowly crawling out of my depression and start to ponder how I arrived at where I was in DC in pursuit of happiness. Just as my life was busy in FL with choir, singing lessons, dance lessons, bible study, tennis lessons, personal training it is no wonder I lost sight of what is important.

Sure I enjoy keeping busy but in doing so I missed what is important and drifted away from family life. When I moved to DC, I kept up some of the same activities only to realize they truly did not make me happy. I thought I was doing me.

I enjoyed my new job and I thought I found my true calling. But then severe depression struck me and with the help of my therapist, and my best friend, as well as partial hospitalization program, I knew I had a lot to offer. I am not defined by my past. I was in a lot of pain and was running away from it. Priorities was never my strength. I was blind to the truth and was deceived by what I thought would make me happy.

And what is exactly is that? Is it praises and kudos and attention? Or is it something more?

This is the last time I am running. Success for me is not defined by how much weight I lost, how many certifications I have, or even how far I advance in my career.  Having the perfect voice, the perfect style, the perfect car and house and family .. that are the measurements of humans and does not guarantee happiness.

Home is where the heart is and I believe I will have the patience to endure this difficult time, giving up all that made me happy short term and looking for long term happiness from above. I pray that Jesus will give me the strength I need to wait for the crown of glory.